Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Insecurities?? Yea you got em to!!

Insecurities, whether we want to admit it or not we all have them right?

So, I started watching this series on the Dr. Phil show today about these 6 women from different walks of life who are there to get help from Dr. Phil on their individual issues, and there’s this one lady name Alana who use to be 320pounds and thru gastric bypass surgery has lost an significant amount of weight, she admits that she judges people all the time and she’s going through a divorce because of it, so I decided to go on Dr. Phil.com and read Alana’s story just to get a little more familiar with her, and what I discovered is she’s hurt, and she’s hurt because she was teased when she was overweight and since she’s lost the weight she tends to get back at other people (not the people who called her names) by being very assertive. She’s a very strong person because of her experiences.

I thought about her situation and I realize that a lot of us are like that including me. I think that just like Alana I have become a much stronger person because of the names I was called, or the insecurity I felt within myself when it comes to my appearance, not feeling like I measure up to others, not feeling like guys liked me, etc… and because of all the hurt I felt things don’t bother me as much as they use to; however at the same time it just masked my hurt it didn’t heal my hurt. I think it is so extremely important to get to know someone as an individual because we’ve all been through things that have shaped and molded our characters but the way we chose to deal with the hurt and pain we may feel or have felt can either make us a great person or a not so great person. We’ve had the opportunity (and still do every morning we wake up) to decide on how we’re going to let the circumstances we encounter shape us.

I’m definitely going to be watching this series. I sure I’ll be able to learn something that will help shape my character into the loving, sweet, and compassionate person that I want the world to see me as

Monday, September 20, 2010

Why I blog?

Other than me just having a love for writing , (Well I guess in this case it would be typing lol) I find putting my thoughts down whether it’s on paper or punching a few keys for me is really therapeutic and sure does beat posting it on facebook for people to either like or not like or on twitter where I have to squeeze all of my thoughts into 140 characters, sometimes that’s just not possible especially for someone like me who tends to be very “opinionated” I guess you can say. I tried Youtubbing and that just doesn’t work as well for me like blogging does; however it’s a great way to exercise and get comfortable with public speaking, because for some weird reason when I turn my camera on I get really nervous like I’m standing in front of an packed stadium…. then I look up and no one’s there… it’s just me looking into this small whole and this very dim white light starring back lol. To sum it all up I just like putting my thoughts down and it’s a whole lot cheaper than going to a “shrink”

Holga Anyone?

Over the last couple of years I've developed this love for capturing the world through my eyes in photography and before you ask, nooo I'm no where near a pro well not yet lol,but I hope to be really soon. So,when I discovered I had this love for photography I just had to get this digital camera. A really cute one by the way lol here take a look for yourself and you be the judge

Told ya it was cute, lol,but anyway I love this camera,but over the last couple of months I've really I mean really been into capturing vignette photos using lomography film... and guess what I found a camera that's not super expensive that will let me do that YAY! it's called a Holga Camera and it takes amazing picture. From what I've read so far it seems like it may be a little challenging at first when it comes to operating it,but it seems like it's going to be lots of fun. I can't wait to get one. I found out that urban outfitters carries them and ther not expensive... score! OK here's a picture of one and a picture that was taken with a Holga camera not by me of course,but it's AWESOME!

My Thoughts

So... I'm getting ready to start a new chapter in my life. I'm moving back to New Orleans in a week, after being gone for almost 10 years I have to admit, I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. I see this as a opportunity to reconnect and form a relationship with my sister and brother.

I don't know what it is about New Orleans,but it's something about the spirit there that motivates and inspires me. It's something that I don't get here in Huntsville,AL.

Moving back is a little scary to because I think I've gotten comfortable here in Alabama which I guess is not good. I'm getting a clean slate again, an opportunity to make something great out of my life. New Enviroment,New Opprtuinity,New Job,New Friends. I just hope that I can stay motivated and become the person that lives inside of me that people rarley get to see.

Check out this picture if this rainbow I caught when I visited New Orleans a month ago

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Plus Size Inspiration

Ok, so like many of you I watched this years 2010 VMA's and I couldn't help but noticed that there was a plus size vj/tj which really caught me by surprise because in all the years I've watched MTV I've never seen a plus size girl so I was stoked! Her name is Gabi and she's my new friend in my head. She reps for all the you plus size fashionistas like myself and the black and white lace dress she wore that night was AMAZING! I'm so glad the fashion world is finally seeing that fashion comes in ALL sizes Thanks Gab! Here's she is in my plus size Fall Fashion Inspiration