Saturday, February 12, 2011
I was debating on whether I wanted to post this entry, but O, well here goes.
So it’s been 28 years and I’ve never had a valentine and honestly it never really bothered me until now. I really don’t want to be that girl that is bitter and dreading Valentine ’s Day, but I would be lying to you guys and to myself if I said I’m looking forward to it. Honestly I’m dreading it. I don’t know what it is that has me in this funk this year. Maybe because it’s reminding me that I’m getting older and I’ve never been able to share that special day with anyone. I’m not working so I have a lot of free time and it seems like my mind has been on overload with thinking and longing for a honest and genuine relationship. GOSH I don’t want to be that girl that life becomes consumed with wanting to be with someone and everything I say and do revolves around being with someone. It sucks being single. I’ve gotta find something to occupy my mind so that I don’t go into a depressed state. Last year I treated myself to $200 worth of things from Vicki Secret. Who knows what I'll do this year